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Red arrow: Loser
Black arrow: Winner

Total:
USD 100It's NFP day, yes.
It's Friday, yes.
My Sim trading platform has not been doing what I wanted it to do for the past few days, yes.
But I'm not in a position to be picky (though with data feed, Anthony did imply that I can - well, he said if there's discrepancy between chart and DOM, it's not acceptable. Sweet Anthony).
I can't wait for the perfect day and perfect feeds to start working again.
And I can't stand it that D went in right after NFP report and got out with a profit!
So, I went live, and to celebrate my first day back at work, I gave away 1 point to the market.
I curled up like a ball in my chair after that, helpless and demoralized. I haven't even the chance to blink my eye before my trade was stopped out. I thought about all those times that I was trading crazier instruments like the 6E and 6J with either a wide or no stop and was almost too relaxed for my own good - those were the days....
Almost in the same instant, I blamed my stop. I was about to widen it to 7 points, when the better part of me told me to CUT IT OUT.
Then I saw a setup. But I had no entry. Great.
Then I saw my entry, but I hesitated.
Then for some strange reason (highly likely Solfest's prophesy about my having 13 kids and being stuck in the kitchen!), I uncurled myself, reached out for my mouse and hit "buy".
Enough is enough. I can't keep chickening out coz of a stupid stop.
I got my 1 point. My heart was racing so fast I felt like I was going to pass out. Yes, I've had that before, but that was a year ago!
Saw my 2nd entry, went in and came out with another point.
By then, my mild headache had become a full blown migraine.
D had no idea the ordeal I went through until he came over and placed his ear on my chest.
He was shocked that my heart could actually beat so fast.
He dragged me out for a smoke, and I missed my 4th signal coz of that (all signals highlighted in white on chart above). But I figured out I should stop before I get a seizure or something.
I'm sure I'm under some kind of curse. J told me about this friend of his whose house is supposedly under an Indian curse. I think I'm under a Chinese curse. In Singapore, they have a term for it: "Kiasu". A direct translation would be "fear of losing", or "scared to death of losing", etc.
Good news is, my platform works perfect today! In fact, it's now faster than my charts. LOL!!
I'm sure Anthony did something. The last time I couldn't access TransAct for 12 hours, I wrote him and by the time he got to the office, I was able to log in immediately. I had thought that maybe I was cursed and D was blessed (coz D got home, logged on, and was in!), until I found out from Anthony that he had made some calls (to TransAct and had them re-sync my account!).
Anthony, again, WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT YOU? :-)
I'm going to be using the weekend to think about what the hell is wrong with me. And definitely staying away from anything that causes my heart to palpitate (that means no staring at Hugh Dillon's pictures!!!)
Here's D's chart (the one he hasn't changed since AGES ago - I have dropped TRIX a few times and he still has it!) and his result: